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Chapter 162 – Types of Love
Bai Xuan hadn’t expected Xie Shurong to actually say such things. It was the first time he had been confessed to and the other person was the joker Ah Shu. Bai Xuan didn’t know if he should laugh or cry.
Bai Xuan shifted his gaze with embarrassement from Xie Shurong’s shining eyes and coughed. “Ah Shu, stop messing around. This type of joke can’t be said.”
Xie Shurong wondered, “Do you think I’m joking?”
Bai Xuan, “…”
Xie Shurong stepped forward, gently holding Bai Xuan’s shoulders with both hands and whispering, “I didn’t intend to say it so early but I don’t want you to misunderstand. I want to be close to you because I like you. This isn’t a joke.”
Bai Xuan, “…”
“I have been playing the game for the past few years and never chased after another person. Thus, after I realized I like you, I didn’t know how to express myself. I just wanted to be closer to you. It would be good if I could see you every day…”
Xie Shurong seemed a bit embarrassed and stopped here. He gently touched his nose before speaking again, “Bai Xuan, my feelings for you are serious. Please don’t doubt my heart. I usually like to joke but I would never joke about feelings. This is the first time I’ve confessed to someone.”
Bai Xuan, “…”
The expression on the young man’s face was extraordinarily serious and he didn’t seem to be joking.
Bai Xuan didn’t know how to deal with this matter. He was always calm but at his moment, he felt that his head was swimming and his mind was a confused mess.
Xie Shurong’s serious confession sounded very moving but the key was… Bai Xuan saw him as a brother!
Ever since eating a Chinese meal in the US, Xie Shurong would often make excuses to run over for a meal. Every time he washed the dishes, he would have a bitter face. Then after returning home, he would always say, “Vice-Captain Bai, I want to eat this…”
In Bai Xuan’s view, Xie Shurong was a little brother who hadn’t grown up yet. He was capricious and childish but Bai Xuan could tolerate it. Sometimes he felt that Ah Shu was somewhat cute.
It never occurred to him that Xie Shurong would like him…
The shock in Bai Xuan’s heart couldn’t be described with words.
Xie Shurong was embarrassed by Bai Xuan’s shocked eyes and scratched his head. “What? Do you think I’m immature? I might have a poor mouth and like to brag but aren’t I reliable in critical moments?”
Bai Xuan explained, “I’m not saying that you’re unreliable. I’m just surprised. How can you like me?”
Xie Shurong asked, “Why not? You are so good. It is normal to like you.”
Bai Xuan stated, “I’m a man.”
Xie Shurong grinned, revealing neat white teeth. “I am also a man. See how well matched we are? We even have the same gender.”
Bai Xuan, “…”
This person’s poor mouth was simply irrefutable!
Xie Shurong smiled and patted Bai Xuan’s shoulder in comfort. “I understand your concerns. I’ve been abroad for a long time and I’ve seen many loving same-sex couples on the street. There are even gay lovers who will hold hands to get married. In my opinion, feelings are the purest thing in the world. I don’t need too many reasons to like a person and there is no need for scruples. If I like a person then I should fight for them. You being a man isn’t an obstacle between us.”
Bai Xuan, “…”
Xie Shurong took a deep breath and stared gently at Bai Xuan. “I like you, I hope you can think about me.”
“Think about it, aren’t I tall and handsome? Isn’t my face pleasant to look at? I am very powerful when playing the game and am the perfect partner to cooperate with you. I can help you clean the table, wash dishes and cut vegetables. If you promise to be my boyfriend, I will listen to you unconditionally and hand you my salary card. If you tell me to go East then I will never go West. Where else can you find such an obedient boyfriend? Just accept me.”
Bai Xuan, “…”
His heart had been somewhat touched when hearing Xie Shurong express feelings of love. Then his style changed. How could this guy start to brag when he was confessing. He directly called himself tall, handsome and obedient?
Xie Shurong, don’t you know that your face has fallen to the ground again?
However, Bai Xuan couldn’t help feeling funny and soft when seeing this person’s cheeky expression. This person was obviously sincere. A person would always feel a strange uneasiness in front of their beloved. Xie Shurong was worried that Bai Xuan wouldn’t see him and worked hard to list his various advantages.
In fact, Bai Xuan knew that this person might have a poor mouth that made people want to beat him up but he was reliable in key moments. He was indeed very handsome.
It was a pity…
He wasn’t the type that Bai Xuan liked.
Bai Xuan discovered his sexuality in university. He had a mild temper since childhood and didn’t have too fierce a reaction to this matter. He accepted it naturally.
Then he discovered there was a 1 and 0 in gay relationships (gong and shou). After watching a real video, Bai Xuan sensed that he was a 0. It was because in his dreams, he found out that he was the one being pressed down…
He also accepted this matter sensibly. Was there a need to be a gong in this world?
Of course, he wasn’t the type of gay person that people typically had stereotypes about. He was very manly and seemed like a brother next door type that women liked.
In his school years, he had many female friends because he had a good temper and always thoughtfully listened to the other person. The girls regarded him as a brother or a male friend. He didn’t have any troubles in regards with being pursued by girls.
His usual performance was no different from other males and his male friends also regarded him as a good friend.
At the age of 18, he started to play in the professional league with Li Cangyu. The team’s performance in the first few years was bad and the pressure was very big. Later, they experienced two disbandments and reorganizations. Bai Xuan was busy and didn’t have time to consider these emotional problems, meaning he was single.
By all accounts, he and Li Cangyu got along well. Since he liked men and Li Cangyu was the manly type, he should’ve tried it with Li Cangyu.
Unfortunately, Bai Xuan didn’t feel that way about Li Cangyu. The two people were too familiar with each other and they had a pure friendship. Bai Xuan didn’t want to change this relationship. In his opinion, the current mode of getting along with Li Cangyu was excellent.
Bai Xuan’s type was a mature and stable man. He liked men who wore suits and ties. They should be elegant and knowledgeable. Some people would look very attractive if they had their own career or dared to start their own business.
Xie Shurong was too lively and always smiling every day. If Bai Xuan liked mature men, Ah Shu was a cute and childish man. The gap between him and Bai Xuan’s ideal type was too big.
Bai Xuan thought about it carefully and decided to reject Ah Shu early on.
“I’m sorry Ah Shu, I always thought of you as…”
Xie Shurong immediately interrupted him with a pause gesture while smiling bitterly. “It’s okay. I don’t want to hear the good person and brother card. You are rejecting me, right?”
Bai Xuan spoke with regret, “Yes, I don’t like you and I don’t want you to waste your time on me. It is better to clearly tell you my feelings.”
This was why Xie Shurong appreciated Bai Xuan. Bai Xuan was gentle but also principled when handling things.
Bai Xuan wasn’t a soft bun that people could pinch or flatten. He does things decisively and never dragged it out. He didn’t like to muddy the waters and thought that speaking directly was the best solution.
Xie Shurong was uncomfortable about being rejected but he quickly adjusted his expression. He showed Bai Xuan a smile that said he didn’t mind and told Bai Xuan, “It doesn’t matter. Love at first sight is a minority. Many relationships form after one side takes the initiative. You don’t feel anything for me now but maybe you will like me after a while? I won’t give up so soon.”
Bai Xuan helplessly told him, “You aren’t the type I like.”
“What type do you like?” Xie Shurong reflexively asked before he suddenly hesitated. He noticed the key meaning of this sentence. “Wait, you mean you like men but I’m not your type?”
Bai Xuan smiled slightly. “Yes.”
Bai Xuan didn’t intend to hide this from Ah Shu. It would be too terrible of him if he deliberately said that he liked girls to reject the other person. Since Ah Shu treated him sincerely, he didn’t want to lie. There was nothing wrong with being honest.
Xie Shurong heard this answer and his mood became complicated. He thought it would be difficult to bend Vice-Captain Bai. The result was that Vice-Captain Bai was originally bent but he didn’t like this type of man.
In fact, this was great. It omitted the most difficult process of getting a straight man to change their preferences. You know, forcing a straight person was unethical. This thing couldn’t be publicly told to their family. However, since Bai Xuan didn’t like women, Xie Shurong had no such concerns and could safely pursue him!
Xie Shurong couldn’t help giving a big smile when he thought of this. He looked at Bai Xuan and said, “It’s fine. Maybe I can’t become the type you like but I will try to make you like me.”
He continued, “Haven’t you heard this before? Before encountering true love, a person might think they should like someone of a certain type. Then they meet someone they really like only to discover that the previous conditions they set for themselves could all be ignored!”
Xie Shurong’s words were true. In fact, many people had conditions when choosing a partner. For example, the height and the personality…
Still, God wouldn’t customize a person that met all requirements. A person might arrive who didn’t meet the relationship criteria originally set.
After falling in love, all previous conditions would be subconsciously left behind.
Xie Shurong believed that he could use his sincerity to impress Bai Xuan.
Perhaps he wasn’t as mature and stable as Bai Xuan liked, nor did he wear a suit and tie like an elite worker, but he could heat up Bai Xuan’s heart. He could tease Bai Xuan to make him laugh, help warm Bai Xuan’s bed, give Bai Xuan a reliable shoulder when he was tired and give Bai Xuan a warm hug when he was cold.
“I won’t give up on you.” Xie Shurong’s smile was particularly bright and dazzling under the light coming in from the window. “Bai Xuan, even if you don’t like me now, please give me a chance to pursue you. Don’t just deal the death penalty. Can’t you give me a reprieve?”
Bai Xuan, “…”
Xie Shurong showed his thick skin. “Isn’t it okay? Give me a period of time where I can show you. If you still feel that I am annoying then it won’t be too late to drive me away. Don’t you think it is cruel to directly impose the death penalty? My heart is bleeding…”
Bai Xuan looked at this cute guy wagging his tail and finally smiled helplessly. “How long should the trial period be?”
“It is best if it is a lifetime!” Xie Shurong exclaimed.
Then he saw Bai Xuan’s stare and immediately changed it. “How about half a year?”
Bai Xuan nodded. “Then I will give you six months. Still, I’ll tell you in advance. I really don’t like your type.”
Xie Shurong made an OK gesture while thinking in his heart, ‘The more stubborn a person is, the easier it is to be hit in the face. Vice-Captain Bai, I am looking forward to the day when you change your mind and will blush when asking for a kiss!’
This scene was bound to be better than all dreams.
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