FV: Chapter 120
Lin Luoqing let go, leaned back and put an arm around Ji Yuxiao’s waist. “What is it? You can’t be thinking of starting chaos and abandoning me, right?”
Ji Yuxiao, “……”
Ji Yuxiao flicked his forehead. “You might be an actor but forget about involving us with any bloody plots, understand?”
Lin Luoqing laughed and approached him. “Then what is it? Don’t let me guess and say it yourself.”
Ji Yuxiao saw his bright smile and was a bit speechless.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
The moment Lin Luoqing heard these opening words, he always felt that the next sentence would be, ‘You are a good person but we aren’t suitable.’
He really was a good person but he didn’t accept this type of good person card!
“So…” He wondered.
Ji Yuxiao stared into his eyes. A long time passed before he finally asked, “Aren’t you curious why I was willing to marry your brother at that time? And why did I agree when it was later replaced by you?”
Lin Luoqing hadn’t expected him to say this and was silent for a moment.
Ji Yuxiao subconsciously hugged him tighter and said, “You know why I got hurt and why Xiao Yu lost his parents, right?”
Lin Luoqing nodded. He knew it was a car accident.
“Everybody thought it was just an accident, but I don’t think so.”
Lin Luoqing had vaguely guessed it before but he never expected Ji Yuxiao to tell him this.
He looked at the very serious Ji Yuxiao and asked, “Then have you found the murderer?”
“Not yet, but I have some clues.”
“What clues?” Lin Luoqing was curious.
Ji Yuxiao was silent for a moment and didn’t speak.
How could he say it?
Say that maybe the murderer was related to his father?
Perhaps the death of his brother and sister-in-law and his leg injury were inseparable from his father?
This was too cruel for Lin Luoqing.
He was bound to be shocked and feel sorry and worried for Ji Yuxiao.
Lin Luoqing already felt sorry enough for him. Ji Yuxiao didn’t want Lin Luoqing to feel bad for him any longer.
“I’m not sure yet. I’ll tell you thoroughly when it is over, okay?”
Lin Luoqing stared into his calm eyes. He had actually guessed the answer before and that it should be related to the people of the Ji family, or related to the Ji family. This was why Ji Yuxiao pretended to look like this and put on a show for them.
“Okay.” Lin Luoqing smiled at him and didn’t force him. “You can tell me whenever you want. As long as you are okay, I don’t care about the rest.”
Ji Yuxiao listened to these words and felt even guiltier.
“Sorry,” he said again.
“It’s fine. I said I don’t care. You don’t need to apologize for this. It isn’t a big deal. I know you have your concerns, so just tell me when it is appropriate.”
The more tolerant and considerate he was, the guiltier Ji Yuxiao felt.
“I’m not saying sorry because of this,” he said.
“Then what is it?”
Ji Yuxiao fell silent again.
A long time passed before he replied slowly, “In order to find this murderer and make the other person relax his vigilance and feel I am not his opponent, I created an image in front of outsiders, including my father and relatives.”
“No, you don’t understand. It is for the sake of this pretend image that I used you.” He finally got the words out of his mouth.
Lin Luoqing was a bit puzzled. “Used me?”
“At first, I found it very annoying when your brother pestered me. Then I was injured and wanted to stop the culprit from acting. I wanted to make the disguise more real and I remembered your brother. I remembered your stepmother once saying that she hoped I could give him a chance, so I told them I was willing to marry him.”
“But it was fake. At that time, I just wanted to use him. I thought I could provide him with money and opportunities, which could be regarded as making up for it for him. Then you came to me and said you wanted to marry me. At first, we had a fight and I had a very bad first impression of you. Later, I thought you might work as well. In addition, you are an artist and you look better. It is more convenient for others to think that I am addicted to beauty and fell in love. I lost my ambition and even reason because of this, so it isn’t worth others being wary of me.”
Ji Yuxiao hid his insomnia and the fact that Lin Luoqing could allow him to sleep peacefully.
It wasn’t that he didn’t want to say it, but Lin Luoqing was obviously very concerned about his body, perhaps too concerned. The moment he mentioned this, Lin Luoqing’s first reaction would be to ask why he didn’t tell Lin Luoqing that his body was uncomfortable.
Therefore, Ji Yuxiao didn’t want him to worry.
He was afraid that Lin Luoqing would be worried and even more afraid that Lin Luoqing would choose to accompany him to let him rest well, suspending his acting career.
Ji Yuxiao didn’t want Lin Luoqing to sacrifice too much for him. Lin Luoqing had already given too much. He didn’t want Lin Luoqing to wrong himself for him again.
Lin Luoqing didn’t think much about it. After all, Ji Yuxiao’s words were reasonable and it was similar to what he had guessed before.
What else did he think it was?
Was he still thinking about how Ji Yuxiao used him?
Why didn’t he feel it?
It turned out to be this.
Lin Luoqing didn’t feel there was anything wrong with it. “That’s fine. Then I have to thank you for using me this time. How else can I marry you?”
He smiled. “I have liked you for so many years and I’m very happy to marry you. So it doesn’t matter what the starting point is at the beginning. After all, you haven’t really done anything to me.”
He spoke generously without the slightest hint of concern, let alone discomfort or anger.
It was only then that Ji Yuxiao sighed with relief and laughed.
The last thing he wanted to see was Lin Luoqing’s lost and hurt eyes after hearing this. Fortunately, none of that appeared.
However, Lin Luoqing saying this meant he wasn’t ready to confess his secret for the time being.
Ji Yuxiao never believed that this person had a secret love for him for many years. Lin Luoqing wanted to marry him so much at that time. If it wasn’t out of love, then it could only be due to something else.
He originally thought that if he said this then Lin Luoqing would also say it. After all, both of them had impure motives, and it was indeed the most appropriate to say it at this time.
However, since Lin Luoqing didn’t want to say it, then he wouldn’t force it. Lin Luoqing had always been a very thoughtful person. If he didn’t want to say it, then that could only mean that now wasn’t the time for him to confess.
Ji Yuxiao wasn’t worried at all about whether the secret Lin Luoqing was hiding would be harmful to him. Lin Luoqing was so worried about his body. If it was really harmful, the first person who couldn’t accept it was Lin Luoqing.
Moreover, he wasn’t such a person.
There were many mysteries about Lin Luoqing and many things that couldn’t be understood, but this didn’t affect his trust in Lin Luoqing.
Lin Luoqing definitely couldn’t hurt him. There was no doubt about this and no need to question it.
He smiled and kissed the person in front of him. “It is good that you don’t feel uncomfortable. I was afraid that you would be unhappy because of this. If you are angry, you can lose your temper with me. If you feel uncomfortable, then it is your heart that will be hurt.”
Lin Luoqing hadn’t expected him to say this and felt a bit sweet in his heart. He comforted Ji Yuxiao, “I’m not uncomfortable. You didn’t know me at the time, and you naturally didn’t marry me because you liked me. Your use was only to marry me and nothing else. If you don’t use me, who else do you want to use? Qu Siwen?”
Ji Yuxiao chuckled. “How is that possible?”
“There was Lin Luojing.”
Ji Yuxiao hugged him and coaxed him. “He took the initiative to come up to me. I didn’t know you before, or I would have definitely contacted you directly, not him.”
“So—” Lin Luoqing said with a smile. “In the end, it must be me.”
Ji Yuxiao heard his open-minded speech and rubbed against his cheek affectionately. “Yes, luckily it is you.”
Lin Luoqing also felt very lucky.
Fortunately, the original owner ran quickly and came to Ji Yuxiao one step ahead of him. If Lin Luoqing had transmigrated earlier, then he definitely wouldn’t have come to humiliate Ji Yuxiao, and he naturally wouldn’t have married Ji Yuxiao.
What a blessing.
He thought of this and felt it was really fortunate. The smile on his face became more and more obvious.
Ji Yuxiao looked at him and smiled. Then he asked, “What are you thinking about that is making you smile so happily?”
“Nothing. It just feels that everything is right.”
It was almost impossible for him to meet Ji Yuxiao.
“That is true,” Ji Yuxiao said.
If he hadn’t thought so much and thought so desperately, wanting to stabilize the culprit first before finding the culprit’s identity, he wouldn’t have sacrificed his marriage. Then he wouldn’t have let Lin Luoqing, who he met for the first time, enter his house.
This might be the only compensation and comfort that God gave him out of this cruel predicament.
Lin Luoqing looked up at Ji Yuxiao. He hesitated over whether he should tell Ji Yuxiao about him as well, but he soon gave up.
It was easy to say that he transmigrated over, but it was hard to say why he wanted to marry Ji Yuxiao.
This inevitably involved Ji Leyu, and Ji Leyu never wanted Ji Yuxiao to know his true face.
For some things, you wouldn’t think in that direction when there was no awareness of it. Then once someone mentioned the possibility and made you recall previous events, you might involuntarily think more.
Lin Luoqing didn’t want to expose Ji Leyu’s true face to Ji Yuxiao. There was no need, and it was far too cruel to Ji Leyu.
From beginning to end, he disguised himself so well in front of Ji Yuxiao because he hoped that he could be a well-behaved, cute, and innocent child in Ji Yuxiao’s heart.
He was indeed like this when facing Ji Yuxiao. It wasn’t only facing Ji Yuxiao, but also Lin Luoqing and Lin Fei.
He was really docile and obedient to the people he cared about. He didn’t care about anything they did and wouldn’t get angry.
This was why he could give away all three apples in his hand without thinking about himself.
He didn’t care too much about the people he didn’t care about. However, Lin Fei was already watching him. As long as Lin Fei watched over him, he wouldn’t do anything that was too out of line.
Then why tell Ji Yuxiao that his beloved child would grow up to be a ruthless and unscrupulous villain?
But if Ji Leyu wasn’t mentioned, how could he explain it?
Lin Luoqing couldn’t think for a while, so he chose not to tell Ji Yuxiao about this first. Once he came up with a reasonable excuse to bypass Ji Leyu, he would tell Ji Yuxiao about it at that time.
He looked at Ji Yuxiao and raised a hand to hug his neck. Then he kissed Ji Yuxiao on the lips as if to soothe his guilt.
He couldn’t tell Ji Yuxiao his secret yet. He had to wait.
He kissed Ji Yuxiao again. Ji Yuxiao hugged his shoulder, kissed him, and pressed him into his arms.
Lin Luoqing rubbed against his arms and leaned against him quietly.
Ji Yuxiao said, “You might not mind me doing this, but my father and other relatives misunderstood you because of this. They don’t like you and don’t give you the feeling of home that a family should have after a normal marriage. I’m sorry.”
“But I already have it.” Lin Luoqing looked at him. “Aren’t we a family now? You, me, Xiao Yu and Fei Fei.”
Ji Yuxiao nodded. “That’s true.”
“So you don’t have to feel uncomfortable.” Lin Luoqing approached him again and touched their foreheads together. “People can’t choose the family they are born in, but they can choose the family they have formed. You have a new home, so don’t feel bad for those family members who don’t understand you and hurt you.”
He hugged Ji Yuxiao. “I don’t feel bad because I only care about you. I don’t care whether they like me or not, if they blame me, or if they accept me or not. I am only on your side. I don’t care what they think of me, just as they don’t care what I think of them.”
Ji Yuxiao hadn’t expected Lin Luoqing to comfort him.
He originally wanted to comfort Lin Luoqing and tell him that he wasn’t bad. No matter how good he was, he wouldn’t be understood and accepted from the moment he appeared in that state at that time. It wasn’t Lin Luoqing’s problem. It was Ji Yuxiao’s decisions that led to it.
However, Lin Luoqing didn’t need his comfort at all. Instead, he wanted to comfort Ji Yuxiao.
Ji Yuxiao hugged the person in his arms tightly and didn’t know what to say.
How could he not be uncomfortable?
He had long known that from the moment Lin Luoqing appeared in that situation for Ji Yuxiao’s disguise, Lin Luoqing was destined to never get his father’s favor.
However, he also imagined that perhaps his father could think more. His father might think about how his son obviously wasn’t that type of person and whether he might have other reasons. His father might give him some time and not look down on Lin Luoqing.
Ji Yuxiao was the one who brought Lin Luoqing back and kept saying he liked Lin Luoqing. If they really fell in love with each other at first sight, how uncomfortable would Lin Luoqing be after being treated like that?
How embarrassed would his son be?
It was just that his father never thought about these things.
They weren’t strangers, but father and son. It was impossible for Ji Yuxiao to be indifferent to this. No matter how disappointed and dissatisfied he was with his father, he still had hope for his father.
—Although now it was almost gone.
Ji Yuxiao suddenly felt a bit sad.
He subconsciously hugged Lin Luoqing again. Lin Luoqing was a bit pained, but he didn’t open his mouth to remind Ji Yuxiao.
He could feel sadness from Ji Yuxiao’s body. It was obviously a sunny day, but there was only coldness on his body.
He silently hugged Ji Yuxiao and kissed his neck.
He said, “Ji Yuxiao.”
Ji Yuxiao turned to look at him.
His eyes were as black as ink, quiet and thin like the boundless night.
Lin Luoqing reached out his hand to hold Ji Yuxiao’s face and told him, “Kiss me.”
He smiled and begged coquettishly, “Kiss me, kiss me.”
Ji Yuxiao saw his smile and listened to his soft words. It made him feel that his world had lit up again. Sunlight shone in, and the gloom and sadness in his heart was once again expelled by the sunlight.
He gently stroked Lin Luoqing’s cheek and laughed slowly. Then he held Lin Luoqing’s face and kissed him.
Lin Luoqing smiled and kissed him again and again like two little animals playing with each other, tireless. This lasted until Ji Yuxiao gave a low laugh and finally stopped kissing.
“What are you laughing at?” He asked curiously.
Ji Yuxiao saw the lips that were swollen due to him and laughed again.
He put his chin back on Lin Luoqing’s shoulder and said softly, “It’s nothing. I’m just happy.”
“Kissing me makes you so happy?”
“Can’t it?” Ji Yuxiao kissed him on the face. “Didn’t you tell Fei Fei that you would be happy when he kissed you? Then I will be happy too.”
“Okay then.” Lin Luoqing was very generous. “Then kiss me when you aren’t happy in the future.”
Ji Yuxiao deliberately pretended to say, “Then I will probably be unhappy often in the future.”
Lin Luoqing turned to look at him with eyes full of disdain.
Ji Yuxiao smiled brightly. “Can’t I?”
Lin Luoqing couldn’t do anything about him. “Okay okay, you can do whatever you want.”
Ji Yuxiao listened to his helpless and indulgent tone and felt that his heart was full of light.
He held Lin Luoqing gently and tightly.
In the end, he was lucky. He lost a lot, but he also gained an unexpectedly precious and beautiful person.
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